I love "Grain of Sand", vison. I'm another one who can be described as an agnostic (the factual word I use to describe myself) and a heathen (the one I use half-jokingly). I'm most definitely godless and not a pagan, although paganism and Wicca hold certain attractions for me, the same way Shinto does. I love nature and can feel its awesomeness, but then I think that's because I'm a child of Romanticism and, like Byron, 'I live not in myself, but I become/ Portion of that around me, and to me/ High mountains are a feeling'.vison wrote:I'm afraid "seeker" doesn't describe me. I am not looking. I'm already there, and I found it long ago.
"Appreciator"? "Lover"? "Child of the Universe"? "Grain of sand"?
I think Ethel wrote somewhere that she lacked the religious gene. I remember watching a documentary about how some scientific studies have considered religiousness to be a characteristic of certain brains, like the ability to do maths or music, whch I also lack. Whatever it is, I don't have it. I have never, since I can remember, believed in God, and I certainly don't believe in organised religion. However, I do acknowledge its power to console, so sometimes I wish I had it, like I wish I had someone to blame or curse at when things go wrong (still, I like thinking that when good things happen to me, it's because of my own effort, not divine intervention ). I just can't bring myself to believe, and I think that if I need to make an effort, if faith doesn't come naturally to me, then I'm faking it and it's worthless.
I'm certainly not a Seeker (I've read Harry Potter too ). I'm perfectly happy with who and what I am, and I don't seek for any ultimate truths. In fact, I am quite the cultural relativist, so I don't believe in ultimate truths.